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Handsome
02:23
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(Handsome, Handsome, Handsome, Handsome)
I'll write another song for you,
it may be wrong to want you
still, I do.
Handsome, Handsome.
I think about your skin at night
and the ink inside
it terrifies me.
Come terrify me again.
Handsome, Handsome.
You looked so lonely last time.
I hate how lovely that made you.
Handsome Handsome
We've had a lot of last times
I haven't lost a lonely day
dreaming, oh Handsome, Handsome.
Someday I'll be that Disney princess.
Handsome, Handsome.
So I'll write another song for you
and say (and say) I'm right
to want you more than truth
Handsome, Handsome
(Handsome, Handsome, Handsome, Handsome)
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Doctor, doctor please believe me
I've taken all your pills,
you know I've tried
oh how I've tried, believe me
I still adore you.
Doctor, doctor please relieve me
I'm banging back these drugs of better times
oh how they fly, but really
I still adore you.
As we travel on to wellness.
Doctor, doctor thanks for leaving
I've settled all that stuff
I had yet to stick.
No, I'm still sick, believe me
I still adore you.
So doctor, doctor why can't you see me?
Surely now I've got a patient's right.
Doctor, can't you see me?
I need the rain now are lives are warm and dry.
As we travel on (and on and on) to wellness.
Doctor, doctor please believe me
I've taken all your pills
I almost died.
Doctor, please believe me
I keep the pain 'cuz it keeps you by my side.
As we travel on (and on and on) to wellness.
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Heartsong
02:38
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Is my heart gonna grow back after you die?
I've feared for a while.
I didn't want to be scared still
I'm pretty much still a child.
It's so hard to be open
like I don't have a clue.
I didn't want to be brave.
It's safe not to choose.
It's so hard to be hear in the now when I know,
I know you'll go.
When either way someday you'll go.
Can a heart ever grow back after it tries
and fails all the while to love?
I didn't want to be scared still
we broke up like a child.
It's so hard to be open like I don't have a clue,
that what I'm willing to gain
I gotta be willing to lose.
It's so hard to be here in the now
when I know, I know you'll go.
But that's just it,
either way you'll go
someday by the wayside.
Someday by my wayside.
Girl, don't bring me that much older
bear the pain you're meant to shoulder,
hang your heavy heart and carry on that road.
Girl, don't bring me that much colder
bear the pain you're meant to shoulder
hang your heavy heart and carry on your loving road (x2)
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Oh you, are waiting for the past
to catch it's evil breath up to your lungs
and expose to me the monster waiting there,
to catch up with my heart and scare me away.
But I'm not waiting for a fright
for reasoning escape routes in the shroud of night.
'Cuz I forgive you
long before the break you'd give yourself, I know,
'cuz I'm the same.
So please remember
please recall
you're not the man you were at all.
Oh you, are watching out for love
with eyes that see a beast instead of a man.
So let me tell you clearly what I see.
Not damaged youth with all forgiveness spent,
but love deserving love, for the strength to repent.
And I forgive you
long before the break you'd give yourself
I know 'cuz I'm the same
so please remember
please recall
you're not the man you were at all.
Ok, I didn't know you at that time
but still I've got an "in" to chime:
I had a campfire with my tree
who said to love you eagerly.
Now all I can see is who you grew up to be,
now leave it behind in the smoke to clear
so you can see who you grew up to be
so you can see who you grew up to be.
Yes I have cried but I still like what I see
it's who you grew up to be
So you can see who you grew up to be
now so you can see who you grew up to be (x3)
now yes I have cried but I still like what I see.
I like what I see.
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Rooftop
02:19
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I want to shout it from the rooftop:
you're the one for me.
Cliche as I may be
baby, it's basic ABC simplicity.
You're the one for me.
Maybe.
Maybe all those times I tried
I only our life awake at night,
how could you know that I had come and gone?
And sad men like you bear it
barely knowing who to share with
when the world revealed that I had come and gone.
How high a house could I ever i climb up on, up on?
To shout it from the rooftop:
you're the one for me.
Belated I may be
baby, it's basic ABC simplicity
scared as I may be.
Maybe.
Maybe all my friends and family
only know your worth from what I told
how could they know that I had come and gone.
Ya I was wrong just like you'd prove it
still you really put me through it
did you ever think that you had come and gone?
Oh how high a house do I have to climb up on, up on?
To shout it from the rooftop:
you're the one for me.
Belated I may be
baby, it's basic ABC simplicity,
scared as I may be.
Maybe I'll shout it from the rooftop (x3)
You're the one for me.
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I Want You
03:22
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I want you
I can't have you
And all the while life gives me other choices
I won't take
'cuz all the while your body is my bait.
I want you
I can't have you
and though I know I said I'd be your friend
I can't fake the strength it takes to stay so far away.
No way, no it's not fair
now anywhere we go
it's just me and another man I used to know.
I want you
I can't have you
and so I sit alone instead and rhyme,
all reason's leaving me this time.
No mind, no it's not fair
now anywhere I go
it's just me and another man I used to know.
Open wide, 'cuz I still love you.
Open wide,
I'm trying to climb my way back inside.
'Cuz I still love you.
I still want you.
Even though you're just a man I used know.
So I want you, I want you
I want you each and every day to define
what kind of love gets better left behind?
No, mind, no it's not fair now anywhere we go
it's just me and another man I used to know.
Open wide, and I sitll love you
(open wide)
I still want you
(open wide)
I still love you
(open wide)
I still want you
Even though you're just the man I used to know.
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Tender Hold
03:10
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I have a past behind me
that I won't leave
because it's there
in stories told that I'll find you
there on tender hold so I can find you.
Now unlit rooms are empty
the future's full of old mistakes
but looking back I have you there
in stories told
there I'll find you
there on tender hold where I can find you.
And how it's been clearly
the only way to have you near me these days.
There on tender hold
on tender hold
there on tender hold so I can find you there.
But still my heart will listen.
The traits of history are clear.
One day I'll look ahead and there
in time untold then I'll find you
in my tender hold where I can find you
in my tender hold where I can find you
my tender hold.
There in my tender hold
There I'll find you there, then I'll find you there
on tender hold
I'll find you there
(repeat)
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Saddest Drunk
01:57
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Are you a waste of time, now?
How did I evolve so lonely?
Are you a waste of wine?
I hide you in my heart
it makes me warm at night.
These lonely nights.
Nights when I'm cold inside
all I got with me is an alibi of our lost life
I'm the saddest drunk alive
I'm the saddest bum who has ever confided in you.
Did I step out of line so long ago,
I'll only know us then?
Now you're a waste of wiine
I cry you in my heart,
it makes me young at night,
these lonely nights
when I'm cold inside
all I got with me is an alibi of our lost life
I'm the saddest drunk alive
I'm the saddest bum who has ever confided in you.
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My Distance
02:38
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I miss you.
It's as simple as that.
My distance
though as sharp as a star it may seem
I'm a stone's throw away.
This I swear.
I miss you.
It's as simple as that to say.
Resistance,
though the strong may suggest it to strengthen,
it's just not my way.
This I swear.
So hear me, I miss you.
It's as simple as that to say,
I won't throw you away.
This I swear to you.
Yes I'm still confused a little
I'm still afraid a little
I'm still in love a little, still.
But I'm still me (x3)
And I miss you
I want you
it's as simple as that to say.
I miss you
its the simplest note to play
I won't throw you away.
This I swear to you.
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Waiting
02:45
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Loving you still my have its faults,
I'm talking about you as if we're still together now.
Lonely is just a poet's word
to fasten this feeling to a cure
tonight though I sure am feeling quite poetic.
Waiting and waiting
for my heart to match what's on my mind
for finding and understanding why I felt this time
like waiting and waiting
though still in love in love so deeply
waiting and waiting
for something I don't know completely.
Still loving might prove to have its faults,
I'm pining as if we're meant to be together.
Still lonely is just a simple word,
a lesson I taught myself to learn
but I didn't mean to turn you into a student too.
Waiting, for my heart to know what's on my mind
for finding and understanding why
I felt this time like waiting.
Please don't doubt my intentions loved one.
Pave a new road for all to witness how,
if in somebody's heart you still believe
you'll find within yours forgiveness,
and no longer...
Waiting and waiting for my heart to match what's on my mind
for finding and understanding why I felt this time
like waiting and waiting
though still in love in love so deeply
waiting and waiting
for something I don't know completely.
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I Wouldn't
01:18
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If it wasn't for you
I wouldn't be singing right now.
If it wasn't for you
I'd only be winging it right now.
And when I take a stand at last I'll be upright looking for you.
If that wasn't true
I wouldn't be singing it right now.
If it wasn't for you
I wouldn't have chocolate right now.
If it wasn't for you
them bottles of wine would be dead now.
And when I find my place at last I'll be sitting beside you.
If that wasn't true I wouldn't be singing it right now.
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Daniel's Song
02:54
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I want to get down on the couch
against your hand, against your waist.
I want to lay down life the cat
and bury my head between your legs.
I want to watch you in your grace
as the back light creeps across your face,
it's getting late, it's getting late
and you want to play computer games.
And though I'm farther ahead than I let on
I'm still fighting and falling
to find a small piece of power over you.
I want to know the reasons why
you act so strange sometimes and so shy.
All my stupid friends say it's 'cuz you're gay
and my stupid ego wants to see it that way.
And then I watch you in your grace
as the back light creeps across your face,
it's getting late it's getting late
why do I give a shit what they say?
'Cuz though I'm farther ahead than I let on
I'm still fighting and falling
to find a small piece of power over you.
I want to get down on my knees
when I see you wearing those jeans (STOP)
I'm sick of talking off my sleeve
when look how well you resist me.
And then I watch you in your grace
as the back light creeps across your face,
it's getting late it's getting late,
you better play computer games.
'Cuz though I'm farther ahead than I let on
I'm still fighting and falling
to find a small piece of power over you (but it's my fault),
'cuz all this falling and fighting power in you
I've leased my life to.
What a thing to do.
I want to watch you in your grace as the back light creeps across your face (NO)
It's getting late
it's getting late
it's getting late
it's getting late
it's getting late I guess I'll stay
and watch you play computer games
'Cuz though I'm farther ahead than I let on
I'm still fighting and falling
to find a small piece of power over you.
But it's my fault, 'cuz all this fighting and falling power in you
I've leased my life to.
What a thing to do.
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Battlefield
03:32
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1000 Songs
01:52
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Well my heart can sing a thousand songs,
each and every note so true,
I hear music as it beats along
keeping time to the fine thought of you.
When a long and lonely memory
makes it all go black and blue,
when the world is short on remedy
I get well from the swell thought of you.
'Cuz the minute I found you
was the minute you found me too
aflame with the promise of love.
And the minute you found me
Was the minute we found it to be like a fairy tale book
we once knew.
Now my heart will dream a thousand dreams
just to keep that story true.
When the light of day's too bright you'll see
I sleep well with the swell thought of you.
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Hurting You
05:25
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I can't believe I've been so cold to you, darling.
Maybe I'm growing up right before your eyes.
I guess I just don't believe you love me for real
or maybe faith was a luxury left behind before you came into my life
again, again.
Happily haunting me
with everything I thought I'd get from somebody else
again, again.
And so here I am, sick to my stomach and counting lives again.
When hurting you
hurting you is not the life I want to choose
hurting you
hurting you is not a simple case of blues.
So I'll try to smile more for you, darling.
Love is a gift after all and I need a little grace these days.
But I still can't see the road we are winding.
For the light of my life blinded me before you came into my life
again, again.
Happily haunting me with the second chance I thought I'd get with
that somebody else again, again.
So now here I am sick to my stomach and counting loves again.
When hurting you,
hurting you is not the life i want to choose
hurting you
hurting you is not the life I want to choose
Hurting you
hurting you is not the life I meant to choose
hurting you
hurting you is not a simple case of blues to have.
So I'll take the high road.
And you take the high road.
Kiss me when I'm lost
I'll kiss you back at no extra cost.
'Cuz hurting you
hurting you is not the life I meant to choose (x3)
hurting you
hurting you is not a simple case of blues
hurting you
hurting you is not a simple case of blues to have.
Oh no.
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Jamie Lawrence Los Angeles, California
Jamie Lawrence is a singer-songwriter who loves rhythm, lyrics and (occasionally theatrical) self-expression. She grew up in Van Nuys, CA watching musicals, listening to 60's music and making music videos in the garage with her sister. She started writing songs in 2003 because she missed a guy. She keeps writing songs because she keeps missing guys. ... more
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